A song...

That I needed to uplift me tonight, because somehow, that bastard crawled back into my head.



Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own





Quote, Sophie Sleep.

'We never belonged together, we needed to be together. But all in all, any one person is strong enough to be alone. I have two feet and two hands, one brain. My feet were meant to walk on my own path. My brain knows how to survive alone. My hands will want someone elses to hold one day... but for now, I'm holding my own.'

Travel Plan!!!!

Regardless of the outcome of my university time, I need to go travelling. So... here's the plan... who's gonna come?

This plan is down until I'm 30. That's ten years away.


1. Inter-railing around Europe, stopping in Ireland for a good few weeks.
2. Oz :) - prob will move there for a good few years... or year.
3. Road trip / whatever around US... New York, Cali are musts.
4. Africa, safari / trekking.
5. New Zealand
6. Taking on Asia?

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extract from something I'm writing

There’s that moment isn’t there? Within each passing flutter of a ‘new love affair’… there’s that moment. When laughter dissolves into silence, when the eyes cease to crease from a smile. Suddenly there’s nothing to laugh about anymore. It’s you and that person, and no noise disturbs you. You need them. To touch you, no matter how fleeting, how soft, how tender… sometimes it’s torture. Awaiting the feeling of that person’s skin, their warmth.
Your eyes are locked. It’s almost a challenge… who is the brave one? Who has the courage to begin this new and exciting journey you’re going to start. Well… it was me, this time. Then after that you never needed much persuading. The first time we kissed… oh it was wonderful. Never have two lips appeared to synchronise and fit as ours did. It was tender and full of affection… both wanted to comfort the other.
Then the heat set in. Affection and passion became one. And the times when our bodies weren’t entwined were just as passionate as when they were.
‘Your heart understood mine. In the depth of the fragrant night, I listened with ravished soul to your beloved voice. Your heart understood mine.’